Of Stumbling Sometimes

Dude from Work made me feel guilty about replying my ex's  text messages with one liners.

"He's finding his way back. Isn't that's what you wanted?"

The problem is, what if he wasn't finding his way back?

"That was part of your strategy. To accept him back regardless when he wants to come back. So you shouldn't give him one liners. He's trying to make a conversation."

"Well, he SHOULDN'T HAVE LEFT."

But, i messaged my ex nonetheless. I asked him to call me whenever he's free.

And he did.

We didn't say much though, because the moment i texted him, i regretted it. I felt like i'm passing the ball back to him. 

I quickly regained my self control.

I do not want to continue sitting on hope. I do not want to get hurt again.

So, ladies (and possibly gents), i've learned one trick today.

Everytime there's a glimmer of hope, remind yourself that HEALING YOURSELF is your first priority. Keeping your hopes up means that you're opening yourself up to more pain.

Instead of what if there's still hope, think next time i will give my love to someone deserving.